You take a deep breath as you walk through the doors

It's the morning of my very first day.

Just a quick update on what's going on on the Singapore side... Preparations for September's playmax are up and running! A super skilled dancer joined the team about a week ago and she's assisting with getting 2 outdoor dance items done and wow is she enthusiastic. And did I mention, super skilled.

So my original plan was to get her to choreograph what i thought would be the most important dance - The dance embedded in the evangelistic item in stageMAX. But for some funny reason, she did not want to. And the peeps helping me out agreed that...

I should choreograph it.

Oh. My. Goodness. I HAVE NO SKILLS WHATSOEVER HOW TO CHOREOGRAPH! I would love to. But but but... I HAVE NO SKILL WHATSOEVER!

Those are some of my very natural thoughts. But for some reason, i didn't react outwardly the anxiety i was tempted to feel. Even now, the temptation to be stressed or anxious feels like it's being sat upon by a sumo wrestler - very pressed down.

Have you ever felt it before? Your mind knowing you should be anxious but your heart not exactly following so?

And you're just, still?

And i can only conclude, this is indeed God's ministry. And if it's God's ministry, it doesn't matter to Him if i'm as skilled or as flexible as a professional dancer. What He's after is a heart aligned with His. Stewardship. Worship. Love for God and fellow men. Service.

He will do the rest.

Fear, begone.

((((And a related thought that really hit me is... How did Jesus manage to be without God in those last few moments on the cross when His fellowship with the Lord was broken? I'm beginning to really comprehend how precious a close and intimate walk with the Lord is. Because the Lord holds my service, even, my life together. Without Him, i wouldn't be able to step on. How did Jesus do that? What great love is this?))))

Lord, I'll never be skilled enough or loving enough or complete enough to lead a dance team, but I'm ready to heed your voice and carry out Your ministry.